Name change! Game change!

1509932_798372306894710_4202246855238049106_nWhen I first started this blog, I came to the part for a name & found myself searching for something clever, yet revealing. I sat there in kind of a panic, but then, saw that I could change it later, so I just made something up & moved on.

This name kind of came about, because someone said this to me, & I liked it. I work in Nutritional Services, in a Hospital, & one of the jobs, I do quite often, is called The Checker. We have a patient food tray assembly line & The Checker, is the last person, to make sure that everything, is on the tray, & is what the patient ordered, & is presentable, before it is loaded into a cart, & delivered to the patient who ordered the tray.

It is a job, that I had applied for several times, but my boss, always went out of her way, to give to someone else, without even acknowledging the fact, that I had applied for the job. I work with another boss, sometimes, on the weekends & she decided a long time ago, that she wanted me doing the job & not the woman who was hired for it, when she was there!

A couple of times, when there were call offs, I did the job, & eventually, it was decided, that since I have days where I hardly miss a thing, I should be doing it, instead of the last person, who was hired, off of the street, to do it! Kind of funny, how that worked out! When I had asked about it, she always tried to act like, she felt my mind wandered off of the task at hand a lot. In other words, I am scatter-brained & stupid.

Okay, back to the name! I have a voice, that is not usually loud or bold, so as we did tray line, I had to call out the different departments, as we were setting up the trays, for that department, for the cook, to know what tickets to pull & cook next. There were a lot of times, when the cooks said, they couldn’t hear me, because my voice was too soft & timid sounding.

One of the women, eventually told me to try to Find My Big Girl Voice. I laughed about it at the time, but she said it several times, over the next few weeks & I guess, the seed was planted. I started projecting my voice more & more & still have to remind myself to do this, on the job. We kind of had fun with it & the cook would say “Yes, Ma’am!”, when I boldly called out to him…guess you would have hd to have been there, to fully appreciate it!

I had also been going through some personal transformations,& realized that I was not being heard, or maybe even listened to in other areas of my life. The more you are ignored, the less you say, & the less you have to say.

I was born a middle child & that’s a whole other area of having to be flexible & accommodating. I am also a Libra, & we are great at doing the balancing act.

I found, that I had been this way, a lot over the years. I let the people, who could never shut up & let me talk, or ignored me, or just talked over me, have their say, & I became silent. This is also something I have been working on, in the other areas of my life & one day it just came to me, that I needed to Find My Big Girl Voice in all areas of my life & stop being a door mat.

It was kind of one of those Eureka! Light Bulb! Aha! Exhilarating & Empowering moments! I had found the name for my Blog, FaceBook Page, & maybe even Book in a happy accident! I even named one of my Pinterest Boards “Finding My Big Girl Voice”! I Pin inspirational & empowering articles, quotes & stories, on this Board! It’s like, I have suddenly come back to life!

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2 thoughts on “Name change! Game change!”

  1. Thanks, I plan on doing more writing. I saw something today, about writing every day, whether, you are really feeling it or not, because once you get going, it flows…going to try to do that, even if it’s just a couple of sentences!

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