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Who I am & why I am here

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I had been thinking of starting a blog for awhile now & have a lot going on in my life & have felt a lot of turmoil. I decided I need an outlet for all of the things that are not the way I want them to be or ever, in a million years, imagined them to be.

My name is Charisse. I am in my 50’s & my kids are recently grown & either goneĀ or leaving soon.

I got married for the one & only time in September of 1987. My divorce became final in April, 2010.

I have 2 children, both boys, & they are almost 22 & 20. I have one Grandson who is about 6 months old.

I am living in an almost 2000 sq. ft. home, & in the process of going through everything I own, to downsize to a much smaller house that I will be renting because I am losing my home, due to foreclosure. We bought the house in 1995, so this has been really hard to go through.

I work at a local hospital, in the Nutritional Department on the Patient Food Tray Line. I have been there for almost 9 years.

I went to school in 2010, & got certification as a Medical Office Specialist to try to find a better paying job, so that I could afford to be able to keep my home. I have yet to find a better paying job in that field or any other.

My ex-husband died suddenly in 2011 & had not paid off the 2nd mortgage that was his responsibility in the divorce, so that payment fell on me, in addition to the 1st mortgage, that I was responsible for. I gradually ran out of savings & what I took out of my 401k & got behind on payments. I tried 3 times to re-finance the mortgage & when that didn’t work, I tried to get modifications in order to lower the payments. None of those efforts panned out either.

I will be writing about all of the above things & more. Each thing has its own story & are part of what lead me to losing my home & close to losing my mind.

I am angry about so many things that I had no control over & I think writing about it will help me to come to some understanding & to some conclusions, if I can look at them, written down.